unabashedly ME

14Dec12

So many things I want to talk about, yet I’ve been blessed with extra work for winter quarter at two different colleges–one of which begged me not to leave–so how could I say no? I’m teaching more hours than I told myself I would, under my circumstances, but it’s what I do. The group I just finished teaching (majors anatomy/physiology I) apparently gave me rave reviews–I just wish enrollment was high enough for me to teach them the second half of the course! I loved them, they loved me… (insert big purple dinosaur)

Suffice it to say that I didn’t skip a beat after submitting fall quarter grades and dove right into prepping winter quarter. Yikes! So much for the soft landing coming back to teaching after a few years off.

But since I clearly have a talent and passion for it (aside from the hours of prep work)–I say, run with it. I get in front of the class and I don’t hold back. I am unabashedly ME. I am ME with all of my lame geeky corny jokes (which is part of what they love so much)… in my uber-organization of the course… and my deep-down caregiver nature. No, I’m not a pushover (I make ’em work for it) but I try to make a passing grade doable! And in a geeky, corny, entertaining way.

So when I read what Chris Guillebeau had to say today (if you haven’t visited Art of Nonconformity, DO IT, you won’t regret it!), it really resonated. Not that it typically doesn’t, but he talked about regrets of the dying, the infamous “no one on their deathbed wishes they’d spent more time at the office” bit.

This morning, I had a follow-up appt with my MS specialist. We compared my 2005 brain MRI (done for migraine diagnostic purposes only, supposedly) with that from 2 months ago. Yes, my MS is relapsing-remitting, but the comparison made clear exactly how aggressive my disease is. The doctor said that many with active disease will have 2-3 new lesions every two years (and this is cause for concern). Whereas me… I’ve had 20+ new lesions in the past 7 years.

Yes. Wow. Mind you, no treatment to slow disease progress during that time–and it still amazes me that I was almost completely asymptomatic with all that activity–but it all makes me think about scary things.

And yet, considering Chris’ blog from today, unfortunately many of us can’t avoid “the office”, especially those of us with medical expenses. But I can say with certainty that I am pursuing a passion and making money for it–that I am doing what I am meant to do. And if I can earn money doing work that allows me to be the true ME… that, my friends, is a victory.

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